I just found out recently, that a mummy pigeon made a tiny nest at the apartment’s balcony..

There were 2 tiny eggs in the nest when I first discovered it..

She’ll usually fly away whenever we checked on her from the balcony’s window..

Otherwise, she’ll just remain seated on top of her precious eggs.

The mummy pigeon would sit, with her tail perched upright, resting her chest region on top of the eggs.. keeping them warm..

And when night falls, she’ll hardly budge, but will just remain in that rather uncomfortable position, throughout the entire night..

The eggs finally hatched, just a few days back, revealing 2 homely looking babies..

They appear to be blind, with few strands of brown hair (or feathers) , barely covering their pinkish bodies..

It’s pretty fascinating as well, as to how she is able to remember the exact location of her nest, considering the fact that there are so many other apartment lots around.. even I get confused when I looked at the apartment from far.. 

And it’s indeed heart-warming to see how she fed them and kept them warm..

It’s such a delight to see the babies, growing slightly bigger and that their eyes are becoming more and more visible each day,.. and moving a lot more actively too..

Looking at these little baby pigeons, so helpless and puny, and the mummy tends to them, entertaining to all their little chirps of requests~!

Until they are strong enough to spread their own wings and learn to fend for its own in the real world.. and the mummy pigeon would then be on her own, with an empty nest..

No wonder our parents’ go through the ‘empty nest syndrome’ whenever a child leaves home for college/work..

Seeing those baby pigeons, reminded me of myself.. when I was first brought into the world by mumsie..

Oblivious to my surroundings.. crying for almost every single thing and at every moment of the day.. fragile and defenseless to almost everything..

How my parents attended to all my needs.. how patient they were.. and how they nurtured me into becoming the person I am today..

And they didn’t just nurtured 1 baby.. but another 3 babies after me.. J

I think they’re amazing and I really admire them for that reason alone.. to juggle 4 kids and a chaotic household.. and we grew up with such wonderful childhood memories..

I’m thankful that this mummy pigeon decided to make her little nest at my place here.. She reminded me on one of the most important elements in life that we tend to overlook or forsake.. especially when we’re so caught up in the ‘growing up’ process..

We’re so worried of not earning enough, achieving enough and being good enough for anything that we tend to neglect the people who constantly worries and cares for us..

My mum already told me, that in my dad’s eyes, I’m still daddy’s little girl.. and I guess this fact will never change.. even until I’m married with kids..

I’m still gonna be the little girl in my parents’ eyes.. J

Today marks our second year anniversary together baby..

It was on this very day, 2 years ago.. yes, on April Fool’s Day.. when we made a promise to be together, to care and to cherish each other..

I guess it fits perfectly well with this song yea?

“Wise man says, only fools rush in..

For I, can’t help, falling in love with you… ”

We willingly became fools on that day.. and have never looked back ever since..

Gone were the days when we yearned for our other half..

Wondering if our other half is thinking about us just as you are thinking of them..

Wondering when will the day come for us to meet..

Wondering if we will ever get the chance to meet..

Wondering if you’ll ever spend the rest of your life with that special someone..

Wondering what the future would be like.. and if you would have the strength to endure those lonely days on your own..

I’m thankful that those days are gone for good..

After 2 years of being together baby.. we have learnt a great deal from each other..

That love is not just about saying ‘I love you-s’, giving hugs and kisses although they are important and crucial elements in any relationships..

But as the years passed by, it goes to show that a relationship is more about..

-         accepting the goods and the bads in each other..

-         giving hugs and apologizing after a fight..

-         being understanding and accommodating to each other’s needs..

-         respecting the decision made..

-         being supportive in those trying difficult moments..

-         having trust and faith with each other..

-         standing strong for each other when reality slams its doors on the face..

we may not have had the most glamorous, mind-blowing, extravagant dates throughout these 2 years such as candlelight dinners in flashy restaurants, luxurious trips on cruise, strolling in the fanciest car or going on European holidays..

but I definitely had my happiest moments while hawker-stalls-hopping in hunt for scrumptious food to eat, star gazing by the seaside and from the apartment window, riding on the motorbike to nowhere in particular, checking out the new show houses while dreaming how our future love nest would be like in the future, having our own cookout at home, getting a puppy and raising it together, going for a workout with our pup, lazing in front of the tv with nothing in particular to watch, dancing in the living room with Luther Vandross’s songs playing in the background, making trips back to my hometown and spending time with my family, comforting me when i'm homesick, caring for me when I am not well.. and the list goes on..

I love you baby.. I treasure each and every moment spent with you..

Happy 2^nd Year Anniversary once again..

Love,

Yen Yen

thank you so much for everyone who have shown concern.. i really appreciate all that..

he had suffered too much for a little tiny puppy.. no one could ever be so strong to endure the pain that he was in for such a long period of time..

i'm proud of him for being a fighter, right to the very end...
i was told that little Hachiko, was actually in pain the entire night.. as he cried and whimpered throughout the night.. and he held on, as though waiting for us to be home to bid our farewells.. but the pain was too overwhelming for his little body to endure.. he waited until past noon and finally slipped away...

i visited his tiny little grave last night..dear's dad buried him behind the hse..dear and i gave him his favorite treats and his two favorite toys.. his tennis ball and chew toy.. and sprinkled some flowers over it as well..it was a cool night..peaceful..

and i said a little prayer and made peace by accepting the loss..
and right after i went back indoors, it began to rain.. heavily..
it was as though little Hachiko waited for us to come and meet him for the very last time..before allowing the rain to come..

it would've been difficult to go and visit his grave if it had been raining..
i guess that was his special way of saying goodbye..

the road to recovery won't be easy i guess.. returning home to see his food bowl and water bowl there.. and his favorite towel laying in the living room.. and basket full of his food and treats and shampoo.. his hair brush still have tiny clumps of his fur.. it's just kinda hard..

time will ease all pain..i'm gonna miss that little boy for a long, long time..

p/s: please DO NOT recommend your friends who would want to send their pets to this particular vet by the name of Dr. Loh in Chai Leng park, the one right behind the 'Rich Man's market'.. he operates from a house.. please tell them to NOT go there.. i found out a little too late, cos apparently he has a reputation of providing wrong diagnosis and has killed quite alot of dogs, and especially puppies..

I lost my dalmation, Judy, somewhere in February this year..she has spent 8 years with my family and I.. one day she went missing, and the next thing we know.. we found her lying by the nearby field, dead..it was as if she knew that her time was up, and she decided to move away from the people she loved, to die.. alone.. maybe she thinks that we would probably grieve too much should we see her breathe her last breath..

i cried the day i got the news.. cried so hard.. the pain never seemed to cease.. its a heart-wrenching kinda pain.. unbearably hard to breath just the mere memory of her.. it took me days.. and weeks.. to actually be able to think about her and not shed a tear..

after that very day.. i thought i would be able to handle this kind of scenario better..

i was wrong.. sooooooo very wrong..

dear got us a siberian husky puppy on 30th Sept 2008..he was 1 1/2 months old.. we named him, Hachiko, based on the name of a faithful Akita dog in Japan.. and he was such a joy to have, to hold and to love.. he was such a darling with his creamy whitish brown coat and his beautiful baby blue eyes.. we loved him from the very 1st day itself.. and everyone in the family who came and saw him, was nonetheless smitten by his cuteness and cheekiness..

it was a wonderful sight to come home after a long day at work.. to see a 4-legged tiny furball sleeping by the door waiting for your return.. to just cuddle and play with him.. and he could perform his tricks well, to sit, stand, shake his paws and laying down at command.. at such a tender young age..

2-3 weeks later.. he began to lose his appetite.. we didn't suspect anything amiss for the breeder told us that he had been given the necessary vaccinations and dewormed as well..
by the end of 3rd week, we got really worried, as he barely ate his food and was not passing his stools and urine as often as before.. and his body became rather bloated.. we began to suspect it was worms..

hence we took him back to the same vet, and he insisted that there was no worms present and said that his kidneys and stomach was inflamed possibility of ingesting toxic chemicals.. but we took precautions to not have any chemicals around.. so there was no reason he could have ingested any.. but since he's the doc,hence we did not argue with him.. he gave him an injection which supposedly could improve his blood circulation and some herbal liquid to detoxify his kidneys and liver..

little Hachiko's condition did not seemed to improve.. he got weaker.. barely ate and was sleeping alot..

dear's dad took Hachiko to another vet.. And he was aghast by the condition of little Hachiko.. he checked Hachiko's medical card.. and apparently he was given half the required dosage for his vaccination.. and that he had not been dewormed properly.. after evaluating him, he said that little Hachiko only had 30% of survival chance left in him..he prescribed some medication to improve his condition..if he survives for 3 days on this medication, he would have a better chance of surviving..

dear's mum and sis in law offered to care for Hachiko.. and they helped to care for little hachiko while we were away at work..

on day 1, which was yesterday night, Hachiko began to vomit horrendously upon taking the medication.. and all his vomit contained worms.. worms of ALL SORTS OF TYPES & SHAPES & SIZES.. he was all weak and feeble.. and even in a state of semi-consciousness, he still wakes up, lifts his head and opened up his eyes to greet us when we called to him.. and upon knowing that we're there, he gently closes his eyes and falls into a deep slumber..

day 2, 30th Oct 2008.. Hachiko cried througout the night.. he was in too much pain.. he was groaning and eevryone felt helpless for not being able to ease his pain.. we prayed hard that he would pull through..

he finally breathed his last breath at 12.45 noon..little Hachiko has left us forever..and I was not there for him.. but at the very least, he did not die alone or unloved.. he was surrounded by people who loves him as dearly as us.. he has pulled the heartstrings in all of us.. and although he is tiny in size, but the size of his heart and his courage to fight, certainly did not match up to his little body..

i failed.. i thought i would be able to handle my emotions better.. but i failed..

i cried.. cried so hard till i couldn't catch my breath.. even at the slightest thought of him now hurts badly..

i cried for all the future activities that we cant experience together..

i cried for not being able to see him grow up..

mummy and daddy will miss you little Hachiko..

we love you..

now and always....