I lost my dalmation, Judy, somewhere in February this year..she has spent 8 years with my family and I.. one day she went missing, and the next thing we know.. we found her lying by the nearby field, dead..it was as if she knew that her time was up, and she decided to move away from the people she loved, to die.. alone.. maybe she thinks that we would probably grieve too much should we see her breathe her last breath..

i cried the day i got the news.. cried so hard.. the pain never seemed to cease.. its a heart-wrenching kinda pain.. unbearably hard to breath just the mere memory of her.. it took me days.. and weeks.. to actually be able to think about her and not shed a tear..

after that very day.. i thought i would be able to handle this kind of scenario better..

i was wrong.. sooooooo very wrong..

dear got us a siberian husky puppy on 30th Sept 2008..he was 1 1/2 months old.. we named him, Hachiko, based on the name of a faithful Akita dog in Japan.. and he was such a joy to have, to hold and to love.. he was such a darling with his creamy whitish brown coat and his beautiful baby blue eyes.. we loved him from the very 1st day itself.. and everyone in the family who came and saw him, was nonetheless smitten by his cuteness and cheekiness..

it was a wonderful sight to come home after a long day at work.. to see a 4-legged tiny furball sleeping by the door waiting for your return.. to just cuddle and play with him.. and he could perform his tricks well, to sit, stand, shake his paws and laying down at command.. at such a tender young age..

2-3 weeks later.. he began to lose his appetite.. we didn't suspect anything amiss for the breeder told us that he had been given the necessary vaccinations and dewormed as well..
by the end of 3rd week, we got really worried, as he barely ate his food and was not passing his stools and urine as often as before.. and his body became rather bloated.. we began to suspect it was worms..

hence we took him back to the same vet, and he insisted that there was no worms present and said that his kidneys and stomach was inflamed possibility of ingesting toxic chemicals.. but we took precautions to not have any chemicals around.. so there was no reason he could have ingested any.. but since he's the doc,hence we did not argue with him.. he gave him an injection which supposedly could improve his blood circulation and some herbal liquid to detoxify his kidneys and liver..

little Hachiko's condition did not seemed to improve.. he got weaker.. barely ate and was sleeping alot..

dear's dad took Hachiko to another vet.. And he was aghast by the condition of little Hachiko.. he checked Hachiko's medical card.. and apparently he was given half the required dosage for his vaccination.. and that he had not been dewormed properly.. after evaluating him, he said that little Hachiko only had 30% of survival chance left in him..he prescribed some medication to improve his condition..if he survives for 3 days on this medication, he would have a better chance of surviving..

dear's mum and sis in law offered to care for Hachiko.. and they helped to care for little hachiko while we were away at work..

on day 1, which was yesterday night, Hachiko began to vomit horrendously upon taking the medication.. and all his vomit contained worms.. worms of ALL SORTS OF TYPES & SHAPES & SIZES.. he was all weak and feeble.. and even in a state of semi-consciousness, he still wakes up, lifts his head and opened up his eyes to greet us when we called to him.. and upon knowing that we're there, he gently closes his eyes and falls into a deep slumber..

day 2, 30th Oct 2008.. Hachiko cried througout the night.. he was in too much pain.. he was groaning and eevryone felt helpless for not being able to ease his pain.. we prayed hard that he would pull through..

he finally breathed his last breath at 12.45 noon..little Hachiko has left us forever..and I was not there for him.. but at the very least, he did not die alone or unloved.. he was surrounded by people who loves him as dearly as us.. he has pulled the heartstrings in all of us.. and although he is tiny in size, but the size of his heart and his courage to fight, certainly did not match up to his little body..

i failed.. i thought i would be able to handle my emotions better.. but i failed..

i cried.. cried so hard till i couldn't catch my breath.. even at the slightest thought of him now hurts badly..

i cried for all the future activities that we cant experience together..

i cried for not being able to see him grow up..

mummy and daddy will miss you little Hachiko..

we love you..

now and always....